From a young age, I found myself being subjected to almost every form of abuse you can think of, my dad died when I was six and I was diagnosed with ADHD. I found myself in the emergency room quite often, although, as far as I know, it was never because of outside inflicted abuse. I was very accident-prone and every visit to the emergency room stemmed from that. The abuse continued even after my childhood, it was so pervasive that I often didn’t even realize it was abuse.
I have been actively exploring spirituality since October of 2004, although, I was always drawn to it for as long as I can remember. I have always had an interest in what people would term magic and I started my journey exploring new age spirituality and paganism. A lot of it seemed to come naturally to me, I personally believe in reincarnation and it seems I have spent many lifetimes on this type of path.
In 2005 I started working with Reiki and that started me on my journey of trying to find a way to heal myself. In 2006 I received the attunement to become a Reiki Master (teacher). From there I started working strongly with fairies (nature spirits) and other beings from that realm. I also came to the realization that I work strongly with trickster energy.
Tricksters are often misunderstood and seen as negative. However, what they are really about is helping to destroy stagnation so creation can come in, but they also can work with a lot of chaos and darkness which I leaned towards. Chaos and darkness are not necessarily bad, but they can be challenging to use properly and need to be balanced with light and order. A lot of my journey has been learning to temper the chaos and darkness of my past with light and order so I am able to use both when beneficial.
In 2014 I discovered Masati (FKA Mas Sajady) and started working with his work quite a bit. Through working with him I came to the realization that using my abilities incorrectly and without a proper foundation were causing most if not all of the issues in my life. As I worked with him I was able to let go of my patterns of abuse and I stepped away from my abilities while I got a strong foundation for them to come back in properly.
After I created a strong foundation my abilities started to come back in and I began the journey of learning to use them properly without causing myself distortion. I have continued to release deeper and deeper layers of my old distorted patterns which in turn has allowed me to strengthen my capabilities with my abilities. Once I got to a certain level of purity within myself, I was able to start consciously helping guide people to finding and becoming a more complete, healed and pure versions of themselves.
Even after you have came to the purest possible version of yourself by reaching and releasing the deepest possible layers of your distortions, which I have yet to get to, you can continue to refine and define yourself into infinity. I plan on continuing to become a better, more refined and pure version of myself for the rest of this life and into all my future lives. What I have achieved anyone can achieve if they are willing to travel deep into the depths of themselves and humanity as a whole. I have walked the path and see where the path is going I ask you let me help you achieve the same.